(Should’ve quit directly and quietly and closed the whole thing much more elegantly, but anyway.)
I gave notice on March 12th and finally got a finalizing word today on April 5th.
When I first talked with my direct supervisor, I had to (secretly) take a breath before uttering the first word, even though I’ve planned it all this way. His first question, as I recall, was probably “So traveling for three weeks each year isn’t enough for you?” The funny thing is that the trip isn’t really about traveling — at least this is what I think. Good-nature as he is, he soon showed his well-wishing side and congratulated me for being so brave as to leave my job for a 300-day “round-the-world” trip, banking everything I have, which means I’ll be reduced to some church mouse status when I return to Taiwan. I think I have been very silly and cowardly almost all my life; bravery is something I have to learn to come close to.
Further interviews were held. I listened to some pretty impressively interesting life stories, while in the meantime, I wonder whether I’m doing 100% the right thing by opting for a “turning point” in life. For this type of turning point, to be specific. One thing to be sure: I most certainly do not have any romantic notions about this trip in particular or traveling in general. While my sensitive capacities are impressive in themselves, my sensible mind never ever let anything out of its firm grip even when romanticism à la Damien is in full swing. Come on, guys: while at school I excelled in humanities subjects, I also held my head high when it came to high school mathematics and freshman calculus!
Next Monday is going to be my last day at work, which is actually my first full-time job, which I took up almost five years ago right after an affecting Rosenkavalier in Taipei. I remember looking at the “green wall” with all the living plants on it in the interior of National Concert Hall, thinking, “Tomorrow I’m to surrender my freedom.” In any case, however, it was a really wonderful Rosenkavalier.
And now I’m soon to be unemployed for the first time in my life. Unemployed, jobless, full-time dreamer/sucker, however one calls it. Hopefully the cause is worth it.
Let me make sure that I’ll do something worthwhile for my life.
* Picture source: my own, taken back on 1st July 2007 in National Concert Hall, Taipei, Taiwan. (I can’t find photos of the “green walls” for that period.) While our Concert Hall is far from perfect in various ways, I always feel as if “coming home” whenever I come close to it.
* Video: For the last couple of months I’ve been planning to use this one for my departure on 1st May 2012. A couple of weeks earlier, however, I decided to have something even more arousing, and this clip is at least as suited to this occasion. Madonna’s original MV on Youtube happens to feature better sound, but the images are not inspiring to me, and in any case I’m not a fan of this pop diva. The Ugly Betty episode corresponds nicely to my situation and, as a bonus, does feature someone’s cute little dimples 😛